Leaning on my beloved

Quote 27 May

I haven’t been this happy in a while. So thoroughly, truly, passionately happy. Here with You.

Text 27 May Same thing…

Sometimes we don’t pray because we are afraid God will have an answer for you that doesnt fit in with your plan. Its amazing when you finally come to Him, and He tells you, Eve, your plan is my plan but BETTER. Ah I love it

Video 25 May

break every chain…

Text 25 May 1 note Oh God

Oh My God. I love you so much. Its ridiculous. How good you are to me, its ridiculous. This morning I was listening to a lovely song by Jesus Culture called “Break every chain”. I wasn’t REALLY listening to it, it was just playing in my ear. And I’m aware that I’ve been keeping God at arms length lately. I’ve been worried that if I let Him in, if I really let him in, He wont let me have what I want.

And yesterday I realised I may not even be getting all of what I want, but I’ve been trying to convince myself its enough. And the fourth time I played this song, it just HIT my heart. The words resonated in my spirit in a way they didn’t the first three times.

Its a simple song… Simple words

“There is power in the name of Jesus
There is power in the name of Jesus
There is power in the name of Jesus
To break every chain
To break every chain
To break every chain”

But I love that God finds a way, always.. ALWAYS to break into my heart. Even when I make it a point to stay away from worship places, or worship music, or worship people, he still found a way to HIT me in the core.

Break EVERY chain. And now I am truly free. Truly free to enjoy what I wanted with no expections. Not just TELLING myself that there are no expectations… I am now fully free…

Break EVERY chain.

Text 23 May I got what i wanted…

I got what I wanted, what I’ve been wanting for the longest time. I got it. And I’m happy with it. Its interesting the reaction from my friends however, they are all happy for me, but at the same time confused with my decision. Or indecision. But I don’t think I need to make a decision… I’m happy with what I’ve got. I got what I wanted :)

Quote 17 May

Its not just about doing what feels good. Its about doing what feels good for me. Its about finally letting go of what other people think and doing things not for other people but for ME.

Photo 13 May 1 note

In the east end of my city #1LoveT.O (Taken with instagram)

Quote 2 May

The thing about starting over, is that you can get away. You can begin again without the weight of peoples dissapointments, peoples expectations and people’s experiences of you. Expectations they may have every right to have. But starting new gives you the opportunity to start new slates. Create now stories and have new beginnings. I’m very much looking forward to starting new.

Quote 22 Apr

I remember there was a time I thought to myself: Someday I’m going to resent you for this. But even as I said the words, at the time.I loved you so much I couldn’t ever see myself hating you. But even then I had the forsight to know that someday, someday I would get tired of this. Someday has come.

Quote 12 Apr

1. There is NOTHING wrong with being single. 2. I am not defined by my singleness. 3. At the moment I am devoting myself to my First Love and only my First Love 4. My relationship status is a testament of that 5. I do not seek your attention, nor ask for your approval 6. He loves me better than you ever could 7. He loves you too.:

— Eve from 2009. A little harsh, a lot true :)